its been a whiiile i know. but i got mad shit on my mind so i figured ill throw some in here. college is mad stressful. I havent done what i needed to do to start off the year right, but i feel i finally got my mind right pertainining to my attitude towards my studies. I have to lay off the partying a lot more, and try to get focused on things like staying in shape and getting my work done.
i gotta thank some people for getting me through some shit. my roomate, and a couple of real close friends you know who you are when you read this. And Deniz for always being my same old blood brother.
I regret to say i did lose someone special today. I tried to keep a relationship in tact, and be honest and truthful to her. despite my attempts to end it the best way possible, something got into her and she just didnt understand. Now things are fucked up, but what can i do. i did try. i kept my cool for long enough, then i just had to explode. i really wish it didnt have to be this way, cuz i really do care about her. I guess i just dont feel the way one wants to feel about her in an intimate relationship. i told her my mind and i cut the bullshit. I tried hard not to be the "typical asshole guy" all you ladies refer to. i dont understand why we cant understand eachother. I felt real bad about this at first, but now im just numb. i dont know what else to do. i have no regrets.
im not the only one having problems like these. for some reason i seem to be surrounded by them. guess its just that season or something.
theres other things going on with me, but i dont think this is the right time place to state them.
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